KaRa's Journal

friday to sunday
poof a doof is what i did again, what a surprise lol

so [friday] i just chilled here for awhile, and did nothing special, just ate some food, and was bored for awhile, and chris was running late cuz he got out from work late so i just chilled here, talked to chris or jenni, eventually got readi, and then around 4 ish they got my house and then we went to bayshore and got my check, and then went and got jennis check, and got jackey at the mall cuz she was coming to mastic with me tonite, then we cashed our checks and then went to mcdonalds and got some food, and of course jackey had no money so i had to get her somethin, and then we went to my house and drop off my rent money to my mother which we did at the right time cuz she just got home, and then after that we went to sevs and got chris cigs and cups for vile then off to mastic we went and we got dropped off viles house, and we just chilled at his house and drank some vodka and this "mexican juice" nah its just some tropical punch from the deli which is super good actually, esp with the vodka esp seeing its shitty georgis hahaha, and we just chilled for awhile, then jackey got hungry so we went to the pizza place and got her food and vile food, im too nice sometimes and then eventually we met up with a couple of his friends, and then went bak to vile's and got the vodka and then went to jr's and chilled in the van and they all smoked and i finish the vodka and had my beer, my homie scott stopped by and chilled for a bit, eventually me vile scott and jackey went bak to viles and chilled for awhile, and then scott and jackey eventually went home, i finish my beer and ended up passing out lol, and then the next day [saturday] i got woken up around 11 somethin cuz vile wanted to go to jr's and smoke, and i really didnt want to, all i wanted to do was sleep, and then finally i got up when jr got there cause they were not letting me to sleep at all, so we all left and went to jr's and chilled there for awhile, then later on vile's brother wanted to go to pathrmark to meet someone there, and we were kinda locked out of vile's house so we took a bus in the cold to pathmark and chilled there for awhile, and then we left cuz i was hungry, and we went to tacobell and chilled there mmm tacos, and i got everyone someone food cuz i was nice again, and then scott met up with me again, and then we chilled for a bit, and scott had to leave cause he had work in islip but his mom was nice to give me a ride home cuz they were goin out that way anyways, so least i didnt have to wait in the snow cuz the snow was coming down hella bad, so i said bye to vile and jesse and then i got home half an hr later, tired as fuck, ate some food, pete try callin me but i didnt have the card yet, bah i really need to talk to him and say some shit, then chris and people stopped by and gave me a ride to cvs so i can get the card, then they went poof but i didnt kno they went to sevs so i walked home in the damn cold, oh well, and then i got home, activated the card, put the card to global tech thingy, and then called pete's mother and told her to tell pete i did that and she said sure and we chatted for a bit, and then i let her go, and then i was bored online for a bit, and then pete called me and i talked to him for a few mins and he said he had to go, and then i told him i really need to talk to him about somethin so try call bak, so he actually did and then i went into this whole explaination of how i fucked up and im sorrie, im so fuckin sorrie cuz i did cheat, but for some odd reason he was 100 percent understanding and not ready to kill people which kinda bugged me out, but whatever idk its wierd but he did wanna get off the phone and write me a letter and etc. ugh, idk man, everything is confusing and i felt horrible but he seem to make its fine and he still loves me, and i feel like somethin bad gonna happen in the future but idk what, i just dont fuckin know man, im buggin out forreal, so i let him go, i was depressed and disgusted with myself so i went downstairs, and watch halfbaked and chilled and then some random kid i kno in bayshore called around midnight on my cell so i talked to him for a bit, and then i got off the phone with him i watch more tv and then passedout, then today [sunday]i slept horribly, all nite and all morning, i kept waking up countless time, i just coulnt let me brain shut off cuz of everything, and i was afraid i was never gonna hear from pete again, and i think that would kill me, so finally i got up around 1145, went online, chilled there for a bit, at 12 no one called and thats wen i was buggin yo, then 19 mins later he called, yeah im kinda psycho, and then i talked to him, and fuck he sounded so depressed, even through he said lastnite it was okay, it wasnt , then we were fighting over nonsense, and he was upset i had no confidence in him even through hes goin outpatient when he gets out, which i had no idea about, cuz god forbid he tells me things, and idk i kno hes hurts, i kno i am hurting, i been hurting since the nite i find out he got lockedup, ugh, but we were fighting like we did when he wasnt in jail and it brought me bak to bad memories and i dont like that at all, cause i like when things are happy, but when is anything truely happy anymore right? idk, so after i got off the phone with him, cuz he didnt wanna talk, i talked to chris for a bit, then said ill call bak cuz one of my friends lost his phone so he told to me call it, to see if anyone answers but no one did, then i try callin chris again, but he didnt answer, and here i am bored drinkin coffee, no idea what im doin tonite, jarad said somethin abut sabrina chillin wif us later maybe, that be a nice change seeing i havent seen either in forever but who knows if it happen, but either way i wanna do somethin so if u wanna chill text me or somethin, but pete is suppose call me tonite before they call for count so hopefully he does cuz i do want to talk to him and not fight and everything so i guess we'l c if that happens, but right now im bored drinkin coffee and talkin to chris again, so i guess im off for now later

-KaRa

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