KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 12:46:00 GMT

so lastnite [friday] after i updated i finish getting readi, and then around quarter 9 we left and then i stopped and got cigs, then went to work, and worked worked worked and worked more, it was a long day it went by super fast, bought a small lil wallet that could fit in my pocket cuz there never is fuckin locker keys and its mad annoying, so no more bringing pocket book to work haha, and then eventually i got outa work on time, waited for my ride, came home, had some coffee, then got chinese food, chilled, talked to jay <3 took a shower, and then had some more coffee, fucked around online, then eventually jay called me and we talked for awhile til he was goin out wit one of his boys, and then i watch deathproof cuz it was on tv and then eventually passedout around midnight, it would of been a lot sooner but i couldnt sleep at all ugh, then today [saturday] i slept slept slept, kept having wierd dreams, woke up around 715ish, got up later then i wanted to, and now im bored online drinkin coffee, i gota leave soon for work, i got work 830am to 415pm, and then later im goin to jays to sleep ova seeing i dont got work tomorrow woo =D but other then that nothin is goin on i gota leave about 20 mins so im off to get readi for work, and iguess jay is still sleepin seeing he didnt answer my txt, but i think its odd his sn aint online its wierd oh well, but im out fornow later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 12:57:23 GMT

so lastnite [thrusday] after i updated i just chilled online, nothing too exciting then i found out i didnt have to take a train to work, so i was pretty siked about that, so then i just chilled online for a bit, left around 1 to go to work, smoked a cig before work, worked worked worked, and it went super fast i was really surprise and then i got out on time and then i had an half an hr to kill, so i walked around the store and i got these awesome new green skinny leg pants and then some bras and undies under 20 bucks cuz im an awesome shopper haha, and then we went and got my mom at work wen my brother picked me up, and then came home, ate some food, took a shower, had some coffee, and fucked around online, got offline around 10 somethin maybe 11, talked to jay for an hr on the phone =D and then passedout, then today [friday] i slept slept slept and more slept, i actually didnt sleep that bad, woke up a couple times, thats about it, and then finally i got up around 730ish, and now im drinkin coffee, got work soonish 915 to 515, and then gota take a train home which sucks but whatever shit happens, but other then that nothin is goin on, i gota finish getting readi cuz my only ride is probably leaving soon, and i try txting/iming jay but he didnt answer so i guess hes still sleepin or busying, lol, but other then then nothin is really goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 14:57:17 GMT

so lastnite [wednesday]after i updated i chilled online, drank some coffee, talked to jay, eventually got readi for work, and got dropped off at the bookstore, and chilled there had a bagle and a coffee, and then went to work, and worked worked worked, got out on time, had to take a train home, so i took a taxi and then a train, got home around 3, went online, and chilled, was pretty bored, talk to jay mainly, eventually ate somethin, and then took a shower, then got readi, and then chilled for a bit, then around 730 i went and took a taxi to kmart to meet jay there, then we had to walk to the gas station and get smokes and blunts lol, then eventually walked bak to his house, i was freezing, and then we chilled, watch a couple movies througout the nite, smoked a bit, had chinesne food, as always it was a great nite cause me and him are idiots lol, and then eventually we passedout like 3am, cause we both have work the next day, so then today [thrusday] i slept excellent, like i always do when i stay there, and then i woke up 830, to tell jay he has work soon cuz apparently he wouldnt pay atten, so he got up, got readi, called me a taxi, and then the taxi took forever to bring me home it was like he was kidnapping me lol, and then i got home around 915ish, and now im bored online drinkin coffee, txting jay, got work soonish well 130 to 530, not sure if i gota take a train yet, waitin to hear from my brother but i probably do, so if thats the case i gota leave at like 11 somethin which sucks but whatever but other then that nothin else is goin on, probably not doin anything tonite seeing i got work tomorrow at 9 somethin in the am, ughh but other then that nothin is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 13:03:34 GMT

so lastnite [tuesday] after i updated i just chilled online, txt jay a lot, was kinda bored, eventually got readi for work, then took a train to work, then got pizza at kingkullen and then went to the bookstore and kill some time, and read some of my new book, and then went to work, it was long day but for most part it went pretty damn which is always good, and then i got out on time and of course my mother was late and then she had to go into target, it was so annoying, finally got home, went online, for a few, talked to chris, ate some foods, and then decided to passout i was exhausted, so i passedout for a couple hours and then i woke up mad txt from jay, saying sorry he fell asleep, it was so cute so i txt him real fast and he was still up so he called me and talked for a few mins cuz he didnt have chance to get mins for his phone, and then i said i was goin bak to sleeps, and ill talk to him in the morning, and then i went back to sleep, and then today [wednesday] i slept slept slept slept, my momz woke me up around 730ish, i wanted to wake up earlier then that, i guess i didnt hear my alarm or hit the snooze button as usual, and then i got up went online, got dress for work, and now im drinkin coffee and talkin to jay as usual lol, got work soonish 10 to 2, but my only ride is at quarter of 9, so i deff gota leave soon, then later tonitee i get to see jay woot =D and then idk, but i gota finish getting readi for work so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 14:43:34 GMT

so lastnite [monday] after i updated i chilled online for a lil bit, and was bored mostly, talked to chris a bunch times, did some laundry, and then eventually ate food, and was bored bored bored, talked to meg a lot, then eventually i watch some of love hurts, and then jay hit me up and said around 615 he was coming to get me, =D so then i went and took a shower and got readi, and then he got there on time then we went to marc anthonys and got pizza, and then went bak to his house and chilled and ate pizza, acted like retards u kno the usual, we watch american psycho2, and texas chainsaw massacre, eventually we watch freddy, the first two, well in the middle of the first one, we met up wit bryan and his gf who i hate to get smoke, and apparently they wanted to chill for a bit, so we chilled for lil bit but me and jay get annoyed easy, so we get dropped off by his house around 1ish, and then we chilled, i ate some pizza, and then we eventually ended up passingout, and then today [tuesday]i slept slept slept and slept actually pretty good but thats only cuz it was at jays lol, and then i got up quarter to 9, cuz jay had to get to work and he was running late, so he called me a taxi, and then around 9 the taxi came cuz she went to the wrong street lol, and then i got home and fought wit my mother cuz she doesnt understand the concept i dont got money to give her and i kno ill never get bak, so i argue wit her for a bit, and now im bored online about to have some coffee, then soon i get to go to work, i gota take a train sadly but im workin 130 to 915, and then probably doin nothing seeing i got work tomorrow at 10am, so i deff need sleep lol, but other then that nothin is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

thrusday to monday

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 15:19:13 GMT

poof.

so [thrusday] after i updated i just chilled online for a bit, and eventually i took a shower, jay got here so we went and got some chinese foods, and chilled, it was cool, just watching movies as always, and then eventually i left at like almost 3am it was suppose b an early nite, but it never is, lol, and then i said goodnite to him wen i got home, and then passedout then [friday] i slept slept slept slept, got up later then i want, got up around 7ish, went and got readi for work, my only ride was at like quarter to 9, and i had to take it cuz i had work around 10, so i got dropped off at the bookstore, ate somethin, went to work, and worked worked worked and worked more, and then i got out on time, waited for my brother to get me at 330, i bought some things while the wait even my boyfriend a pink beanie which he lovess. haha, and then we went and picked up my momz, and then chris was there, went i got home so we went to ronk to cash my check, and then to mc'ds and then i took a shower and such, and i got readi then he drops me off at jays, and jay was in a pissy mood that nite, cuz of some drama and some other shit, and then we were fighting cuz i got to wasted and i passedout on him it was really bad, but we decided the next day we arent gona drink anymore and he said i can drink but wont chill if im drunk, and i dont blame him cuz i finally realize the grl who i am when im drunk is horrible and so not me, its no excuse but its true, and i dont even wana drink anymore honestly so then [saturday] we slept for awhile, and then we talked for a bit but everything that happened lastnite, and then we went bak to sleep, and then eventually woke up again, watch buffy and then deathproof <3 and we smoked for a bit and then we walked up to the stores, went into kmart got some sic dvds for 5 bucks and then we got mcd's and i saw jay and melissa, wow i didnt kno they were still around, and holy shit they look horrible, then we walked around some others stores and then eventually we went bak to his house and chill, went to the store to get cigs and soda, and then came bak to his house and chilled, got some pizza eventually and chilled and watch just married natural born killers, grandma boys, and part of 8mile but then eventually we passedout lol, and [sunday] we slept for awhile, and then around noon i woke up in a lot pain, so i went to the bathroom and sure enough i got my period, and its wierd for past couple months it been always late and now its coming early, i just thought it was odd oh well, unfornetly i had nothing and i was wearing a thong, so i asked jay if we can walk to the store and he said yess, so i was like awesome, i swear to god he is the best boyfriend eveer, so we did that real fast, came bak to his house and chilled, watch 8 mile, and then he went and got mcd's for us and stop and get cigs, and then i watch twlight and chilled, ate food, i end up passing out for a couple hours cuz i didnt feel good, and then i got up around 6ish, and chilled, watch natural born killers, and then eventually i went home cuz jay had work in the morning, and his mom goes bed early, so i got home around 10ish, and then i talked to my momz for a bit and then eventually i went online and ate some food, fucked around on melo, talked to chris, was pretty bored, then tobasss hit me up and he said he was out east, so he decided hes gona bother me and stop by lol, so i got dressed and then he got there 10 mins later, and we went by the water and chilled and catch up all that nonsense, had a 40 but didnt even finish it all, im really starting to hate drinking, i didnt get rideclous or anything, i just honestly dont enjoy it anymore, i never through i would ever say that haha, so we chilled for a bit, made fun of some guy pulling out mad garbage on a radio fyler radio at 1 in the morning, god sayville is so random, so we chilled and shit and then i came home around 2ish i was tired, then i txt jay for a bit, and then he called me and we talked on the phone for an hr, and he had to tell me somethin apparently his ex nikole came through to start shit and punched him and try to choke him, hes fine but it was all this nonsense they even called the cops again, and apparently if this happens again which jay thinks its finally over she probably get it in mad trouble cuz his mom is not dealin wit this bullshit anymore and i dont blame her or jay, i mean this is fuckin rideclous forreal now, just leave us alone its mad drama we dont bother her and her new boyfriend, ever, so whatever, so i talked to him for awhile cheered him up cuz im mad good like that, and then passedout around 3amish, then today [monday]i slept slept slept, and then around 930ish i woke up, cuz i can never sleep esp not at my own house haha, i got a good morning txt from jay <3 and then i got up went online, did some laundry and now im bored online drinkin coffee, no idea whats goin on today, but its my last day off, then bak to work i go, so it be cool to do somethin, i dont got work til the afternoon so i deff can do somethin for lil bit, eh i guess ill see what happens, but other then that nothin is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 00:16:34 GMT

so lastnite [wednesday] after i updated i chilled online for a bit, and then got readi eventually and then around 12ish i left to figure out how ima get to work cuz trains were all fucked up but luckly there was a train at 1 somethin so i chilled at the train station til the train came and then i took taxi to work, and then i got some pizza and then i went to work, worked worked worked, it was long day pretty much, and then i got out on time, and then i came home and chilled online had pizza, eventually took a shower, just was bored online mainly and then eventually i got offline around 11, talked to jay on the phone for a bit, and then we txt all nite til almost 3am, which i shouldnt of done cuz i had work early today but oh well, and watch that 70s show of course haha <3 and always sunny in phildeplha also ha, and then passedout, then today [thrusday]i slept slept slept, and then i kept having wierd dreams well night terros, and then i woke up later then i wanted to cuz my phone died when i was sleepin, so i got up quarter to 9, and chilled online for a bit had some coffee, got readi for work, and then around 10 i left and went to the train station cuz i had no ride again and trains were all fuck up again ugh i hate that shit, but luckly there was a train, i guess i been having good luck these days ha and then i took the train to work, had time t kill so i went to the bookstore got a preztal, and bought a new book, yay for new vampire books =D and then i went to work, it was busy as usual, and i worked worked worked worked, and then i got out on time, then went and picked my momz up and now im home drinkin coffeee, gota shower soonish, seeing jay is gona b here around eight to pick me up so we can chill for a couple hours which im of course excited about haha, so other then that nothin is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 14:50:19 GMT

so lastnite [tuesday] after i updated i chilled online for a bit, chilled, drank my coffee, was on fb for a bit, then i actually got a ride to work, frank was actually awake for some odd reason, drinking but awake lol, and he said he would bring me to work and such, so word i was happy about that, so i got readi, he came over we chilled here for a bit, but he wanted to go home soon, so quarter to 11 i left and went towards bayshore, we stopped at the mall so i can have mcd's and then we left and around 12ish i got to the bookstore and chilled there and read some of my book which im almost finish woo, and then talked to chris for a bit, got this awesome new pocketbook for 4 bucks at payless lol, im the best shopper ever man, and then eventually i went to work, and worked worked worked worked it was busy as all helll, except towards the end, and then i got out on time at 7, then i came home had some foods, took a shower,and then around 9 jay came through and got me and we went bak to his place, stopped at his neighbors house and drank two beers and smoked a bit, eventually we went bak to his house and chilled watch texas chainsaw massacre the beginning, which i never seen before but it wasnt bad at all yo, and eventually i fell asleep which sucked cuz i felt bad, but then he woke me up around 230ish, cuz i had to get home, cuz he had work in the am and all, so the taxi was 10 bucks which sucks mucho but whatever, i came home called jay talked to him for a few mins and then passedout, then today [wednesday] i slept slept slept and slept more and then my brother informed me i most likely dont got a ride to work, which sucks but whatever so i slept for a bit more then i got up, went online, found out there no trains again, ugh that sucks so fuckin bad!!! so if i dont find a ride again i guess im attempt to take bus they give u if it actually comes or imma take the s40 but im gona leave around 12ish so i get there early if any is running late or whatever, and then i talked to jay for a bit and now im bored online about to drink coffee, i dont got work til 215, but i gota leave semi early, workin til 745 tonite which aint bad, not sure if im doin anything later tonite cuz jay got work mad late tonite =[ and i got work kinda early tomorrow which is lame but i guess ill see what happens but im out for now later

=KaRa

ps. and btw things are lookin up i guess u can say. cuz jay asked me bak outtt <3 =D

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 14:58:03 GMT

so lastnite [monday] after i updated i chilled here for a bit, was on fb mainly eventually finish my coffeee, got readi , and then left for work, drove my momz to work, then i got drop off at the bookstore, and i got coffee and a bagle and read some of my book and then txt jay for a bit, and eventually i went to to work, and worked worked worked worked, it went super fast cuz as usual it was super busy, and then i got off on time, then i came home and have coffee and chilled online and then jay told me hes gona come get me so we can eat chinese, niiice, so i went and took a shower and got readi, waited for jay, finally he came sometime after 7, and then we went and order chinese, came bak to his place and ate it and chilled for a bit, and then around 9, i walked down by cookies deli cuz dan was coming to ghet me so we can chill wit him and meg, and go to the bar, so we get meg, and go to the bar and chilled there, half penny pub of course =] i only had two drinks i was very proud of myself, well one was strong but thats okay haha, and then a magic hat of course, and then eventually we left to go to bayshore to pick up somethin from simmers, and sadly i had to see his ex gf, ughh and then we went bak to megs to chill for a bit, and somehow in the process we got lost in brentwood, idk how thats possible cuz i kno that area like its goin outa style and then eventually we get bak to megs, we smoked a bit, and then she gets tired so we all leave, and then i get dropped off, i try call jay but he dont answer so i passedout, then today [tuesday]i slept slept slept and slept more and then i got up around 9 when everyone was leaving my house cuz i got informed i have to take a train to work, cuz my brother wasnt taking the car, so i got up went online, and of course i found out theres no trains cuz of stupid work, so i guess if the bus flakes out again like it did that one time ima take the s40 to babylon and hopefully get to my job, ugh i hate this shit, and now im bored online drinkin coffee and txting jay as usual, nothing else is goin on, i got work 130 to 7, so hopefully i make it to work lol, but other that nothin is goin on idk what im doin afterwards probably nothing, but im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 13:00:18 GMT

so lastnite [sunday]after i updated i chilled online, was pretty bored, was starving cuz there's never food here, so i just chilled online, talked to chris for a bit, stalker harass me so i blocked him for 100th time, talked to jay for a bit, and then jay decided hes gona come get me again and feed me food cuz i was starving, yayy pizza again haha so iw ent and took a quick shower and then he was here so i got readi mad fast, and then we went bak to his house and chilled, ate some pizza watch lucky slevin, it was a good time as always, i went home around 10ish, cause his mom was goin to sleep soon and that was my only ride,then i came home and chilled online had some cofffee, talked to jenab she randomly called me it was odd, and then i talked to jay for awhile on aim, then around 1ish i got offline, then jays txting started workin yayy and then random people kept txting me when i was trying to sleep of course, and then eventually i went to sleep, then today [monday]i slept slept slept and slept more and then finally i woke up around 730ish, later then i wanted to, so i got up, txt jay but i guess hes still sleepin and now im online drinkin coffee, gota leave for work soon cuz my only ride is at quarter to 9 which sucks but whatever, then i gota work 11 to 4, then afterwards no idea what im doin i guess ill see what happens, but im out for now, later

-KaRa

friday to sunday

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 20:28:58 GMT

poof.

so [friday] after i updated i chilled online, was pretty bored nothing too exciting was goin on, so chris said he was gona come ova and chill, which worked out good, cause then i could just get a ride to jays house lol, so i chilled online, ate some food, and then eventually chris came here and we chilled, and watch some of young single and angry, til megavideo decided to be lame and said i had to wait hr to watch the rest which was shitty, oh well so i said fuck it and took a shower got readi and then we left and got meg <3!!! and then we decided to go to the mall of course cuz there was nothing else better to do so we walked around the mall a lot, met up wit my friend dave, saw lizzie workin a lot, which was cool, most of the time we went out there on her break, i guess we had good time, ate food, saw pat at the mall but he was wit ashley so i didnt say hi haha, i got this cute necklaces at clairs, but of course one broke but meg said she can fix it, and then chris and meg went to eat, we walked around in the mall more, and then i got these epic jeans in delias that are like patches and shit wit peace signs i loved it, and they were only fuckin 10 bucks which is even more amazing haha, which made me broke but good thing i put money away for rest of the week til i get paid again hahaha, and then eventually around 9 we left the mall cuz jay told me to come through around there, and then we drove to bohemia to where he was and then we went bak to his house and chilled, and drank some beers and smoked a nice blunt, and watch grindhouse <3 and part of haunting in connt. it was sic shit, eventually i passedout, but it was an awesome nitee as usually, wit him, idk this kid drives me insane, seriously, then [saturday]i slept slept slept slept, and then me and jay woke up around 10 somethin, i have no idea why so early lol, and we just chilled, and talked, and eventually watch some movies and then we passedout again, and then woke up around 7 lol, and then we chilled and watch mad movies even more and then got dominos cuz we r mad hungry and then we chilled eventually smoked a blunt and chilled and we ended up passing out like 4 or 5 am, and then today [sunday]i slept slept slept slept then i got up around 1030ish, cuz jay needed to go to work, so his mom was droppin him off so they were gona drop me off on the way, so we left, stopped at the gas station by my house, jay gave me cigs i was like surprise yo, and then i came home said goodbye to jay, thank his momz, and then i came inside and passedout right away, of course my mom talked to me here and there, it was mad annoying lol, and then i slept slept slept, and finally got up around 230ish, got up went online, try to txt jay but of course tmobile sidekick is being fuckin lame once again, ughhh, but least he can be on aim somehow, so i talked to him a few mins but hes at work, he really needs to get a new phone LOL, anywho now im bored drinkin coffee, todays my last day off =[ til i got bak to work tom kinda early, which is lame but i gota make the money, no idea what im doin tonite, probably nothing im kinda still tired haha, but i guess ill see what happens i cant do anything too crazi seeing i got work tomorrow at 11am, least all this wk is early hrs for once but yeah nothing else is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 16:45:26 GMT

so lastnite [thrusday] after i updated i chilled on here for a bit, and then did some cleaning cuz my mom told me to then chris hit me up and asked if i wana chill before work and i said sure, so i went and took a shower, got readi for work, and then chris eventually got there around 3ish, so my bright idea decided lets go to smithhaven mall haha, bad idea, seeing i spend 60 dollars in less then 10 fuckin mins, i went to hottopic and of course they had half off of clearence which is fuckin awesome, and i got a new belt its white and black wit stars, i needed a new one it was sic abd then i got black and red icp hoodie yo <3 its awesome and it was only 30 fuckin bucks =] when its orginally a fuckin 125 dollar hoodie, whos the best shopper in the world, oh that be me haha, and then i got 15 percent off cuz i sign up for there new discount card thingy, so both things came out to b 30 dollars haha, and then i saw cell phone covers in a both and i needed a new one cuz i lost part of mine one nite wasted and i got this awesome rainbow shooting star one, its sic and it looks mad good to my phone cuz my phone is green and whatnot, and then we walked around a bit, chris made me go into build a bear so he can make someone a stupid bear shit and then we left and i stopped and got cigs and then went to work, got there early which was cool, and then i worked worked worked worked, it went semi fast it was pretty fuckin busy til almost 11 which was cool, got out on time, came home ate some sloppy joes, talked to jay online and the phone we couldnt chill cuz it got to late so he said tomorrow im coming over and im sleepin over seeing i dont got work on saturday =D seeing i gave my hours to katie, yeah having the whole weekend off for once in my life woo, so after i talked to jay for awhile, and just was bored online i eventually passedout, then today [friday] i slept slept slept slept, i finally got up around 11ish, txt jay and said goodmorning, haha i beat him this time, its awesome, txt him for a bit til he had to go bak to wrk, and then i went online and now im bored online drinkin coffee, and not doin much of anything til later, which would b goin to jays and spending the nite woo hoo <3 but other then that nothin is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 17:42:06 GMT

so lastnite [wednesday]after i updated i chilled online mostly, talked to jay a lot, and some others, nothing really too exciting was goin on at all actually, eventually i ate somethin, did some laundry, and then watch stepfather which was a really really really horrible movie and then part of wrong turn 3, but i had to go cuz woodcock was in town and he hit me up to chill, so i went and took a shower and got readi, and then he got here around 9ish or so, and then we drove around for a bit, went to tishe's house 2 blocks away, and tishe simmers and joe was there, and dan got tree and then we smoked a blunt, which it was a nice one and it started raining haha, it always rain when im outside i swear, and then we left tishe's around 11ish, drove around for a bit, and then around 1130ish i came home, talked to jay for rest of the nite of course cuz for some odd reason we always talk every .2 seconds even broken up, eventually i passedout around 230amish, or so, and then today [thrusday] i slept slept slept slept, and then finally i got up around almost noon, went online, talked to some people online, txt jay a bit and now im about to have some coffee, got work later 6pm to 1130pm, which really fuckin sucks, but least after work i get to chill wit jay and got next day off, not sure how im getting to work, i mite have to take the train if my brothers appt in queens go longer then expected and chris is gona b out here but of course of some stupid girl he cant just drop me off work, yeah hes suppose b my bestfriend i hate when he does shit like that but whatever, people will b shitty, but other then that nothing is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 16:57:25 GMT

so lastnite [tuesday] after i updated i chilled online for a bit, just fucked around on the computer and then around 8ish i took a shower and got readi and then i talked to jay for a bit, he said hes gona b late cuz his nieghbor took forever, like 2 hrs forever, finally around 1030ish he was around so i met up wit him, walked around sayville, stopped at stop n shop, then went and got beers, didnt get too crazi haha, and then smoked a bit and we chilled and then around 1 somethin i went home cuz jays friends went to pick him up cuz they had to do somethin real fast, and i didnt kno he wanted to come bak afterwards and i was tired anyways, so i passedout, txt some people before i passout some people, really really do irrate them, and they my world revolves around them puhplease, get over yourself, anywho so i passedout for awhile, then today [wednesday] slept slept slept slept, of course woke up at 7am again and i was like fuck this, and went bak to sleep, and slept slept slept slept, and then finally i got up around 11ish, and now im up and being bored online drinkin coffee, and talkin to jay, and its so fuckin wierd, seeing two days ago we broke up, i feel depressed and arkward about everything its unreal, and he wants to chill tomorrow idk, its just confusing sitation and it hurts ughh whatever im done talkin about this im goin frickin insane, but yeah todays my day off no idea whats goin on, but i deff wana do somethin seeing i dont got work til 6pm tomorrow, i kno dan woodcock here from upstate so maybe ill hit him up or some shit, but other then that nothin is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnite and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 00:00:46 GMT

so lastnite [monday] literally after i updated it was a emotional wreck like forreal, so jay broke up wit me in txt message cuz apparently hes confused and shit goin too fast and he needs fix his life blah de blah he was sincere about it, but it sucked cuz he said all these amazing things and bam life is shitty but thats how my life goes, and i was kinda mad really mad, mad upset and didnt answer him bak for awhile and of course it was right before work so i was in such a shitty mood and of course i had to work all day and nite so i was meh, so i worked a bit, then me and jay talked and we gona b friends, and i thought just talkin terms then he decided tomorrow hes gona chill and hes kinda excited about it, so of cours ehes another one who hurts my head, well he is gemni, so its understand it just sucks, cuz the way i felt for him i havent felt in yrs, not even pete, but shit happens, i guess if its mean to b we'l b one day, but least we still chillen cuz i dont wana lose him hes awesome to have my life bah im rambling so im done wit this anywho, so i worked a lot, got out on time, got mcd;s came home ate food, watch part of cruel intentions and then passedout, then today [tuesday]i slept slept slept, woke up later then i wanted to got up around quarter to 7, went online had coffe, got readi for work, talked to jay on fb lol, and then went to work, i had such an early shift and i was stuck there til 4, it went super fast through haha, and then i got on time my brother was late getting me, and then we got my momz at work, stopped at mexican place, came home, got money, went and bought cigs and then i came home and now im chillen here bored drinkin coffee, gota go shower soonish, cuz jay is chillen tonite oh man this is really gona b good or bad, who knows hah, he aint chillen til around 830-9, cuz he got some shit to do, so i got some time but other then that ntohin else is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 17:17:02 GMT

so lastnite [sunday] after i updated i chilled online for a bit, then i got readi for work, then and i went to work, jay was grumpy he has been grumpy cuz he been workin rideclous amounts i feel so bad for him like seriously, so then i worked it was busy as all hell least the day went pretty fast, then i got out on time of course my mom was late, and then we came home and i got dressed real fast and then i went to my cousins new house, and we had dinner there watch part of the yankee game ugh, but it wasnt bad time, it was kinda funny the things they say lol, anywho, then around 1030ish i got home from there, a lot sooner then i thought i would of, but my aunt and cuz had to get bak to queens, and then i came home went online for an just fucked around on melo, then went to jarads and chilled there and drank a couple beers and smoked a bit, and then i came home around 130ish, couldnt sleep so i went online for a bit and then finally got offline 3am, jay never called me so he got stuck at work again for another late nite, which sucks so bad, ugh, so eventually i passedout, then today [monday]i slept slept slept slep, woke up mad early my mom was being loud and then went bak to sleep, and then slept more and then woke up again around almost noon, got txt from jay he got home mad late and passedout, and said sorry, which is nice most other guys would b whatever, so i got up went online, txt him for a bit and now im bored online drinkin coffee, got work soonish, 3 to 11, i should have a ride which is cool, but it sucks im workin late cuz i work again next day at fuckin 8am ughh i hate this, but yeah nothin else is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

friday to sunday

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 16:08:50 GMT

poof.

so [friday] after i updated i chilled on here for awhile, found out meg wasnt chillen cuz she was in a mood or somethin, which suckz but whatever, and then i chilled online for a bit eventually got readi for work, and then talked to jay most of the day in txt which is cute as ever, got to work early, smoked a cig and then went to work, worked worked worked, it was a long day, got out on time, of course my mother was late, nothing new, and then i came home, got changed and then i met up wit jay <3 we walked around and then went to chill at our tree in the cemetary haha, and i drank a bit, and then eventually we left and walked to sevs and got me more beer which was probably a bad idea, cuz i got too drunk and shit, and kept him out wayy to late it was bad and i think i said some stupid shit, he said he wasnt mad, but i feel like he is even still, but im sure his ex was worse then me being fuckin stupid and drunk haha, and then i passedout mad late, then [saturday] i slept slept slept, got into a fight wit my mother, woke up mad late, so i got up, txt jay, he was in a bad mood cuz hes having a bad day at work and all this other shit, its bad and i was having a bad day also so it sucked, so fought wit my mother more, then cash my check then went to work, and worked worked worked worked, it was so like forever and i didnt feel good at all and then eventually the day ended, found out jay uncle is fuckin him over, and makin him stay mad late at work, so he cant even chill and it really sucks, so chris came and got me, and we bought me a halloween costume, i was wednesday!!! woot! and then we came bak to sayville, and charged my phone and i took a shower, and then i got readi and we trick or treat, sadly in town some douche egged me in the leg hard, i was buggin out, and then we came bak to my house around 1030ish, sorted outed my candy cuz i was giving jay the candy i didnt like seeing he couldnt trick or treat with me, and then eventually me and chris left and went to half penny, but it was way too crowded there fuck that shit, so then we went to village portler and had a beer, stopped at sevs got nachos and then came home ate food, and then passedout, then today[sunday]i slept slept slept, woke up mad early, like 7am, said fuck that went bak to sleep, saw that people were txting me, apparently jay didnt get home from work 4am, thats so fuckin rideclous like WOW, then i went bak to sleep, and then slept more and then finally got up around 1030ish, and now here i am drinkin coffee, but i gota get readi for work cuz i gota leave in half an hr ish or so, then workin 12 to 545 pm, and then i think i gota go to my stupid cousins for dinner or some shit bahh that is gona b fuckin annoying, and then hopefully seeing jay later if he doesnt get off work super late again i guess ill see what happens but other then that nothin is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 14:47:11 GMT

so lastnite [thrusday] after i updated i chilled online for a bit, was bored mainly, txt jay a lot <3 and then got readi for work eventually, and then chilled online for a bit and then left for work, got there 15 mins early, so smoked a cig and chilled, and then went to work, it was busy as hell, like rideclous and then of course the last hr in half went slow as hell as usually, and somehow i hurt my foot wit a cart cause im fuckin spastic like that, and then i slave in the dollar spot, and then left at 1130 right away lol, then waited for my brother outside, he was late cuz the yankee game was over mad late, and then we stopped at sevs and then i got mcd's and then came home ate mcd's watch some werewolf movie, talked to jay <3 and then passedout, then today [friday]so i slept slept slept slept, had wierd dreams as usual, and then i got woken up cuz my house was too loud, then eventually i went bak to sleep, and then i finally woke up again around 10, so i got up went online, talked to chris, txt jay <3 and now im bored drinkin coffe, just killin time before work, got work soonish, well 2 to 1015, and then im gona seeing jay <3 and hopefully meg and then hopefully somehow cash my check, but who knows if my mom will drive me to cash it, but other then that nothing is goin so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Thu, 29 Oct 2009 19:30:23 GMT

so lastnite [wednesday] after i updated i chilled online for a bit nothing special was on fb mainly, eventually took a shower, had some food, and then walked to the train in the rain, got drenched, txt jay a lot <3 and then took a train to work, and then taxi, got to work 15 mins early, i was amazed so just chilled in the backroom, and then went to work, worked worked worked it was busy as hell, thank god except the last hr of course and then finally got out at 11, and then came home ate some pizza and got changed and then jay came thru, and we walked to sevs and saw jarad there, so we got some beers and kick it back at jarads house and smoked a bit, we watch the movie feed it was the most disgusting movie ever like holy fuck, emi was fuckin right when she told me about it, fuckin wow and then after the movie we came bak to my house and chilled, drank a beer, and talked and shit and it was a good nite as usual, and then he left like 7am lol, and then i passedout, then today [thrusday] i slept slept slept, i was exhausted, and then finally i got up around 2ish, and got a note to clean my comp room, so i cleaned that, did some laundry, txt jay for a bit <3 and then talked to chris and now im bored drinkin coffee, got work soonish 6pm to 1130pm ugh which i fuckin hate cuz the dollarspot is gona be the death of me so im probably leaving around 530ish to work, woo hoo, no idea whats goin on for tonite prob nothing seeing i get out so late and got work next day, and i kno jay is gona end up passing out tonite cuz he hasnt slept in days, so ill prob chill at home but other then that nothin is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 17:57:44 GMT

so lastnite [tuesday]after i updated i chilled here for a bit, ate some foods, took a shower, and get readi and then around 7ish jay txt me to tell me hes in sayville so i walked down there and went to the movies so we can see saw6, even through i saw it the nite before, it was still awesome haha, and then afterwards we walked around for a bit, and then went to the diner cuz i was starving the food kinda sucked more then usual and are waitress was mad annoying to us, but whatever, and then we eventually left there, and walkd to the gas station, to get a beer and a blunt haha, and then walked around for a bit, smoked the blunt amd drank beer in the rain it sucked, so finally i said fuck it, and we went bak to my house everyone was sleepin anyways, so we chilled and watch final desination 2 and the wrong 2, and then around 4 somethin he decided to go home cuz he had work in the am, and he didnt sleep a lot lastnite, i dont even how he was funcioning, and then i relax watch married wit children, and then passedout, then today [wednesday] i slept slept slept slept and slept more, my phone woke me up a couple times, i got cute txts in the am from jay, it was soo cute, and then i went bak to sleep, and then finally i woke up around 1ish, and then talked to chris and now im bored drinkin coffee, got work soonish, well 530 to 11, but i gota take the stupid train, which is around 450, and ugh its so shitty out eh whatever, no idea what im doin after work, if anything, i mite just relax seeing i been goin out constantly these days haha, but other then that nothing is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 20:40:17 GMT

so lastnite [monday] after i updated i called lemon tree and they said they were open and the grl i wanted to cut my hair was there, so i got dressed and walked down there, i had to wait for lil bit but that was fine, then she cut my hair, she did an awesome job, its super short but sic none the least a lot people like it actually lol, except frank he like bitched me out yo haha, whatever its my head, he aint my boyfriend, actually hes deff my bf. then i came home home and chilled for a bit then around 7 i left and walked down to the movie theater cuz i was meeting my friend greg there to go see saw 6, which was sicker then all the others it was beyond fuckin gorer which was un fuckin real, and i think i mite like this one the best honestly, and then after the movie i walked home and chilled in my house for an half an hr then i went to chill wit jay, which nikole ex's fiance but she wanted us to hangout it was so wierd, so whatever im down hes cool, and then he came and we walked around town, went to the cemtary and smoked a bit, his pot is beyond good, and then i drank a jooose and then we eventually got another beer, and i got budlight lime, walked around for a bit and then we eventually went to jarads to chill and then eventually i had a bright idea to walk to sevs after all the beers r gone and i was kinda drunk haha, and then i finally made it there, which took forever cuz i kept stopping haha, got there, got another beer, came bak to jarads and chilled and then simmers eventually came over and chilled, so jarad and bry were playing video games and i was outside talkin to jay, and he liked asked me out and shit, i guess he really is over nikole, i felt wierd at first but then i found out he told nikole cuz she wouldnt leave him alone and shes so happy about it, its fuckin wierd, but whatever, he seems like he actually could be good for me, i guess ill see what happens, and just b happpy, so yep goin out with jay and then around 6am i passedout, then today [tuesday] i slept slept slept and slept more, and then got up a couple times, cause my phone never fuckin shuts up, and then finally got up around 330ish, got up, went online, and now im bored drinkin coffee, but soonish im leaving to go out, jay should b chillen around 7, and he wants to see saw 6, so we gona do that hahha, so it should be fun, cuz i thought the movies was sic, no idea what im doin afterwards but i guess ill see what happens, im not gona chill too late seeing i got work tomorrow, even through aint til 5pm, i just havent been having a focus sleeping schdule again, see this is what mad days off do to me, god i hate it haha, but other then nothing is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

saturday to monday

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 18:43:07 GMT

pooof.

so[saturday] after i updated i chilled and got readi for work and then took a train to work, then taxi and then chilled at the bookstore for a bit and read some of my book and then went into work, and worked worked worked, it was a long day but it was super duper busy so it went by fast and then i got out on time waited for a taxi, and then went to the train station of course when i get off work its fuckin downpouring, and i had awhile to wait for a train but i did meet this cool kid name chris, who wanted my number, apparently we gona chill soon it the future, but who knows, and then finally i got to sayville, saw the bums chillen at the train said hi, then came home and ate some food, took a shower, fucked around on melo, had some coffee, and then randomly came across my homie eddie i havent seen in yrs, he somehow got my number and asked if i wana chill so i said sure, so i got readi and then around 1amish he got here and we drove around for a bit, got some beer in pathmark, and then we drank a beer in his car then we decided to go chill at his house in guam and when i mean guam i really do mean that lmfao, i was all way out in the hamptons it was horrible haha, and then we chilled there for rest of the nite, just drinkin beers and shit, and then eventually i passedout at his house cuz he was too drunk to drive me home, then [sunday] i seriously slept all fuckin day, i never sleep all day, i was fuckin amazed haha, so i got up around 6pm, i was like i should get home, so we left his house, and then stopped at burgerking, and then got gas in his car and the guy walked away after he pumped our gas so we got 3 bucks for free which is always sic and then i got burgerking haha, and then i came home, ate some ramen and chilled online for a bit, eventually took a shower, talked to some people and then finally my homie dan came and got me, and we went to get meg!! cuz i havent seen her in forever and she needed some vitamin k haha, and i talked to my homie nick from ct on the way to her, and he said fri we gona chill and hes gona pik me up from work, which is cool, so then we went and got meg and went to maxwells in islip but that was lame so we ended up goin to half penny pub, got some drinks, meg was beyond wasted, eventually we smoked, bryan met up wit me later, which was cool, that we are talkin again cuz hes not goin out wit that dumb grl anymore which i also found out i used 2 chillw it her hahaha, eventually i went home, cuz i was tired and shit, then around 4am my friend dann stopped by that was so fuckin random haha then he had to go home cuz his aunt was in the hosp. and shit, so i came home 10 mins later and passedout, then today [monday]i slept slept slept slept, and then i got up around 1 somethin, had mad miss calls from people, called people bak, went online, talked to chris for a couple mins and now im bored online drinkin coffeee, chillen, my music on my comp is being retarded idk why, anywho so idk whats goin on exactly, chris and christina apparently want to chill later but lets see if that happens, and i gota go get my haircut if they are open, so i guess ill call them in a bit, and then around 7ish im goin to the movie theater to meet my homie gregg to see saw 6, hopefully it doesnt suck, least im not paying, but who knows what im doin after that i guess ill see what happens, but other then that nothing is goin on so im out for now

-KaRa

thrusday to saturday

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 13:31:03 GMT

so lastnite [thrusday] after i updated i chilled online for a bit, eventually got readi, and then got dropped off at work, and then worked worked worked, it was a long day as usual, and then i got out on time, and then my mom came and got me, and we stopped at shop rite and i got halloween robzombie film collection special ed. for fuckin 8 bucks, i was so fuckin excited hahaha, and then i came home ate some pizza took a shower, then around 11ish, frank meet up wit me, yeah we made peace finally, and then we drove around for a bit, and then chilled, eventually we went bak to his house and watch drag me to hell <3 and i ended up staying there for the nite cuz he was too tired to bring me home, which is cool cuz he said he'l bring me to work, so then we eventually passedout, then [friday] i slept most of the day, felt like shit all day, stupid drinkin wit frank, i always feel like blah after chillen wit him and then around 1ish we left his house and i went to my house and change my clothes and then stopped at sevs got some foods, and then went to work, worked all day, it went so slow it was unreal, and finally i got out 5 mins late, and then i went to the bookstore for a bit, and read of my book, then walked around kingkullen, then finally my mom came around 1015 to get me, and then we stopped at kohls and then got tacobell and got the black taco <3 which is beyond amazing and im in love wit it, and then i took a shower, fucked around online for lil bit and then passedout cuz i was exhausted, then today [saturday] i slept slept slept slept, then woke up around 9, later then i wanted to, got work soon, 1130 to 745, so i gota take a train and taxi to work which is lamee, but oh well, i got to borrow six bucks from my brother seeing that i dont wana break 100 in a taxi, which is cool, but other then that nothing is goin on, gota take the train soon, seeing the only train is at 1027, which wont make me late to work, no idea what im doin afterwards but it b cool do somethin seeing i got next three days off, i guess ill see what happens but im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 14:40:57 GMT

so lastnite [wednesday]after i updated i chilled online for a bit, nothing too exciting, then i talked to jamas, and he said all this shit r goin down, and then he said i mite go bak to jail for seven yrs becuz of not paying fines he owe wen he got arrested which is bullshit and he also lost his job and blah de blah, soo obvs i cannot b wit someone like this, it wouldnt be right to deal wit someone in jail, when i left petey cuz only cuz of jail cuz i cant deal wit it, so we ended it, it wasnt anything serious anyways, and eh maybe we shouldnt of been offical anyways, it was a fun couple days of chillen, but now hes angry at the world and saying he dont need anyone and all this bullshit, hes kinda psycho but least he agree we should break up and apparently not mad at me, but i havent really talked to him since then oh well, nothing i can do, so then i talked to chris again for awhile, eventually ate some food, then just relax for a bit, got readi for work, then around 630ish i left for work, cuz it was my only ride, got to the book almost around 7ish, chilled at the bookstore and read some of my book for a bit and then went into work, which went slow as always, cause nites are always dead, which is so fuckin annoying, and then i actually got out at 1130, which closing wasnt that bad, and then i went and got mcd;s ate that shit, watch the new southpark episode which was amusing and then watch some of its always sunny in philldeplha, and then passedout, then today [thrusday]i slept slept slept then in the middle of the nite kept waking up a million times cuz of REALLY fuckin night terrors, they were fuckin unreal, i would get panic attacks over them, ugh, i hate sleepin sometimes, then finally i got bak to sleep, and then woke up aorund 10ish, and now im bored online drinkin coffee, got work soon, 130 to 915, and hopefully my brothers apt dont run late so he can take me but other then that nothin is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa

lastnight and today

marilynmanson_gothicgurl@hotmail.com — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 15:57:21 GMT

so lastnite [tuesday] after i updated i chilled online, and then eventually i ate dinner, talked to jamas and some others online, then went to the store wit my mom, and then got cigs, and then came home and showered, had some coffee, fucked around on melo, was bored mostly, and then talked to jamas a lot, he was leaving to do somethin stupid, which im really worried about, but i was exhausted so i had to go sleep around 1ish, then today [wednesday] i kept waking up on and off, or having fucked up nite terrors it was rideclous, and then my mom kept waking me up it was rideclous and then finally i got up around 10 mins to 11, went online, got messages from jamas offline that worried me, apparently he got into a bad fight, ughh and then i talked to chris, and now jamas is online and he told me how fucked he is, hes like super fuckin fucked its rideclous, and im trying to talk to him but shit cuz i cant deal wit this jail shit for 5th time in a row, i really cant, but hes not listening to me, and then i talked to chris more, and now im bored drinkin coffee, got work later tonite around 730 to 1130 which sucks but whatever, probably just gona relax til work, but other then that nothing is goin on so im out for now later

-KaRa